Fantasies

The FUD Syndrome

The most prominent emotions right now are anger, frustration and sadness. The fact they are blunted for trying to preserve a precarious balance is another story. Of course this is not helping nor in the long or in the short run. Somehow the need to express them is becoming more and more important as time passes by.

It is quite a challenge to have to question everything you know or have learned during your whole life to be able to handle the task at hand. Brute force won’t help. Neither being understanding and caring. Assuming a neutral stance only exacerbates the bluntness of what’s going on and of course, does not help either. So, what are the alternatives then?

The other pressing issue is the fact that not only I have to deal with what’s going on, but at the same time, I have to take care of my own stuff, which is not easy. The term dysphoria comes handy, since almost nothing in the current state of affairs attracts my attention or elicits a pleasurable response. Every day is more of the same, a la Groundhog Day, but without the possibility to recap and learn from what’s happening since the following iteration changes everything, and not always in a convenient way.

So, I keep thinking about Mr. Howard’s aphorism: What if everything you have done so far is wrong? This can be a great starting point to question the reality I live in and to avoid the three most obvious options: Accept, Denial or Adaptation. What if the things that need to be done are to be executed in a completely different way? This is what I am looking for, not very successfully so far I must say. I will keep trying since I don’t have anything to lose anymore. Or do I?

 

Powerful Daemons

Sometimes is difficult to tame those daemons that have something to do with our more primal instincts: sex, rage or survival. These days I´ve been recalling a book I read many years ago, where the author described a society based on a closed-circuit life, this is, birth, life and dead inside a huge building, without ever going outdoors. People there were heavily divided by their abilities. The most successful ones lived higher, the others, lower. But, all of them had one thing in common, aside the fact of living in the same place: they could have sex with all women in the building, but hidden social rules dictated that the “lower ones” should stay there.

What if we could do the same now? Have sex or share wealth with everyone? What could change? How our lives will be? Different? the same? better? worse? It´s very difficult to control our most basic instincts just to comply with rules created by a group of people that is not here anymore. Violence and poverty are the results of this kind of ideas, envy and hatred are also side-effects. Perhaps our mindsets need to be changed now. The old rules don´t seem to apply anymore. People need different perspectives, because our society is completely different and is evolving fast. We cannot rely on old power schemes anymore. But, inertia and control of the masses by a few are almost impossible hurdles to take. Nonetheless, I believe a big change is approaching, and we´d better be prepared for it, since the world as we know it, is going to chance forever…