Void
Yet another week. More complaining, more tiredness, more and more of the same things. Sometimes, life is like an old movie, moving slowly and without sound to nowhere. I´ve recently discovered that many of my life certainties are not there anymore. I try to start over, to correct my past mistakes, but I simply can´t find the required energy to do so. Perhaps it´s time to seek some help. The bad part is that when I did this in the past, I ended feeling worse, and all my problems remained more or less the same. No, I´m wrong: this helped me to find more problems that were hidden in my head long time ago. So now I have more things to worry about.
Perhaps it´s time to make a radical turn in my life. Perhaps it´s time to start living my life in the way I believe I should, and not like other people say I must. But it´s difficult to fight with old memories, fear, past orders and values. It would be great if we can just “format” our heads and have a fresh start, with new knowledge, new ideas, new motivation, less prejudices. But, at this time, this is only possible in our dreams or some movies…